counting to September 5th

We parted between two worlds and I will never get to know the distance between us.
But distance is no more longer valid between us.
I am riding out of town
Though I don't know what's ahead of me, I want this route to stay as if September 5th never come
I'm a lost girl within myself
Love is always very strange
Painful, sweet, bitter, happy and addictive
Why did you fly away?
I am still not ready to witness an end of us
My hurt is your happiness
I have questions in my mind
And I know these questions will never be answered
How are you doing up there?
Are you feeling better now?
Do you miss us?
The emptiness and silence in my heart
I miss your jokes, laughter, pranks and sitting next to me sharing your experience
Your love and care for me will always stay in my mind and I will share them with your grandchildren
I will let them know how great you are
I hope by then I am ready to talk about you and your stories
I am sitting in living room and it always makes me reminisce the moment you opened the door and talked to me awhile before you head to bed
My heart is hoping that you'll come home tonight
No, you won't anymore ... I know but just
When can I see you again?