Prudence@Xix

I still miss you  i don't know how to put into words my reminisce towards you  my missing, my feelings, how much i will want to see you again  i couldnt share this feeling with the others cause they dont get it, they dont understand  they are not feeling the pain  i always see you in my dream, our old good days  i have the memories of us having dinner together, i have the memories of when i graduated you were there sharing the happiness with me and i have the memories of me going abroad, looking at your unbearable sadness on your face ... 

Nothing is permanent except death My reminisce about you has not stopped and planned carefully Your existence still lingers in our minds who are left behind You are on the other side where I never know when we will meet again I dont know whats the distance between us and we were never that far apart ...

the day you left my life has changed I am still missing you here so why did you fly away? the moment you walked away, I wasnt there please wait for me to come home

We parted between two worlds and I will never get to know the distance between us. But distance is no more longer valid between us. I am riding out of town Though I don't know what's ahead of me, I want this route to stay as if September 5th never come I'm a lost girl within myself Love is always very strange Painful, sweet, bitter, happy and addictive Why did you fly away? I am still not ready to witness an end of us My hurt is your happiness I have questions in my mind And I know these questions will never be answered How are you doing up there? Are you feeling better now? Do you miss us? The emptiness and silence in my heart I miss your jokes, laughter, pranks and sitting next to me sharing your experience Your love and care for me will always stay in my mind and I will share them with your grandchildren I will let them know how great you are I hope by then I am ready to talk about you and your stories I am sitting in living room and it always makes m...

I was betrayed by love when I did not betray love. It's not fair, it's not fair, it's not fair, it's not fair. Still I'm the only one who seems to care.

Youth, this word has left me and you long time ago Only the memories in your mind could bring you back there U ought to know how shall we play the games in the other world Things will not have gone this way, isnt it? Has times jus swap all away when the sweet gone, bitter comes Everything you said to me, I dont wish to remember most of the bits Because keeping them in mind will hurt me one day, I know Regretting, I dont want to go through this and I know I wont Even so, next time I will made promises to you again Although youve broken mine, no worries I will made mine come true Knowing that it feels awful to treat the others this way like what I came through Easily said from your mouth but I dont know it easily left your mind as well R you still gonna give me more and do the same thing again?

I did not know this will happen until today  Nasty boy who tattooed me with pain  Come and walk out from my life  As if I like to watch this saddening movie  I have the happiness with you all along  Ended with double pain all through you  Give me convincing words to make me feel you love me  Give me convincing laughters to tell me you’re happy with me  But where is your convincing actions to prove me these are eternal  Nasty boy, I am mature enough to carry these  This is not worthwhile to me, do you know?  I doubt everything you had engraved in my memories  Erasing these with the time I hold on tightly  I am naive in the past I did not wish us both to turn back the time  Awakened that you do not belong with me  We were both tired of guessing each other out  Forget about al those enchantment I had to you  This shall be a goodbye song that I wrote for you

Let you show me what you can give to me  Diamond rings, luxury cars, endless cash will be nothing  To compare your truthful heart Please make me feel loving you is worth it  Take my everything and linger as we both want Heartbeats racing, heartache coming all around  Tryna tell me I have fallen for you? Looking at the silhouette in our favourite place Bringing me to somewhere I want much Dont break my dream to jus give me one more chance I could not figure why I am acting weird till you prove to me  About the existence of this magical thing  Amazingly, I just love the way I feel now  Dont act selfishly and take it all away from me I will perish down and believe in no one Heartbeats racing, heartache coming all around  Tryna tell me I have fallen for you? Looking at the silhouette in our favourite place Bringing me to somewhere I want much Dont break my dream to jus give me one more chance Though ...

High heels are never my thoughts to wear when I'm alone With you, there will be me wearing high heels around I walk, strut, tiptoe, run and swift flawlessly with my high heels To know that you are always by my side to hold me whenever I fall This confidence I have never felt it before And I don't feel far nor awkward or even strange with it And and I like it somehow because it is interesting I think Im addicted to this feeling right now It is amazing, butterflies in stomach How shall I describe it when L.O.V.E is just 4 little alphabets to named it It is fearless to have you always around swirling in my mind The first time and everything is perfect as if planned Drag me and lead me to the ending but shhhhh, don't tell me what is the ending Cause I want to keep it as misery for both of us Ever since the feeling grows, everything is jus enchanted for me Enchanted to meet you Enchanted to hold you Enchanted to keep you Enchanted to kiss you Enchanted to fe...

youll always have me :P

Gosh.. I need at least two big boxes of oranges to ease my crave!

This is just so stupid.. Ive been falling sick in these two weeks.. shitty life I got it I know. If Im to call myself a lamb, I will be crying out as if my shepherd has not given me enough food If Im just a girl, you will be hearing me coughing non stop like a girl whos gonna choose to sleep few days to stop the cough going on. This makes me incapable of being versatile and I hate it. but I just love my cough.. =P

I said time flies and it really does mean it. Get it?? =) Ive done my final paper last night for this semester and Im gonna spend my 3 months holiday in my hometown Sounds fun and exciting Am really looking forward for the days!! Now what shall I do to spend my time wisely besides reading books and chatting in Skype? I need you right now!! Please  =')

Gash.. tomorrow my final is gonna start again =(   Wondering what will I be doing again in the examination hall for this time  Anxiety, pessimism, unconfident, brain stop functioning, tired .. these all are striking me to infinity  I don't know how and don't know what to do  Tell me dolls..   Final is really killing me slowly..  Will write again soon asap on my final's last day which is 23rd of Nov.  A worthwhile day to celebrate.. definitely one!!! 

Hi dolls, Ive been here for 3 months. exactly 3 months.. no culture shock for me yet and life at here is just fine for me.. well maybe you picked anonymous people who likes here, they will say Melb is definitely a great place to stay in. So are you one of those that wants to come to Melb also? Well family and friends are still waiting for me in my hometown. I still prefer Kuching's life where I have more relaxation and spending more times with family and hanging out with friends to catch up about every craps that we can talk about.  Wheres my daddy homemade laksa??? =)

I was doing my assignment about global financial crisis (GFC).. I was thinking about GFC and try to draft something about GFC. When this abbreviation keeps repeating in my pages, I practically typed out KFC.. gash what a typo I had. Maybe KFC is running in my mind instead.. =)

Just dont know how to be someone you miss

am listening to Chinese New Year songs right now just had a sudden of missing new year's feeling hope that my neighbours will feel the same as well when they are listening to my playing songs.. hahaha.. Happy Chinese New Year to YOU!!

Dolls.. I've reached Melbourne one week ago Lives at here are all about walking for hours which are damn tiring, cant afford those expensive foods which I promised myself when I get back to my hometown one day I will just grab all my chances and eat everything I could without bothering my weight.. Nothing else anymore coz the rest stays cool for me and I adapt myself very well I guess Oh yeah one more thing that I dislike is I have to cook my own every day meals. Im not a child inherited by my dad good cooking skills and has interest on them. I got my moms genes instead. Smile* Definitely I do miss my family and my room sweet room.. haha and of course I cant deny that I miss YOU as well. I will like to meet you one day if given by any chances.. wu la la*

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